I passed a large blood clot tonight and had some residual bleeding with it. Bleeding seems to have stopped now and I am not having any cramping… wasn’t when I passed the clot either. We’ve called the doctor and he says there’s still hope. I was scheduled for progesterone and estrogen tests in the morning – we are adding hcg levels and at my request and u/s scan although it may be too early to see anything. Tonight I am just to lay around – continue my meds – and pray.
I was thinking today that I wished I had my husband’s faith. He’s been steadfast since the first two tests believing that everything will be okay. Not me – I’ve been the ostrich with my head buried in the sand too scared to be too hopeful. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. I don’t know if this is God’s way of teaching me to give things up and just trust in him… maybe it is – when I prayed for patience he gave me the opportunity to be patient.
I’m fighting so hard to keep hope alive. I know that my God is amazing. He can do all things and I know that He can bring the dead back to life, part the sea, make the waters stand still, and make the sun stop in the sky. I know that he is the creator of all life, yet I am struggling to give this to him to trust him to make everything okay.
Please pray for our family tonight. Please pray for a miracle.
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Oh, girl. Interceding with you and for you tonight.
Thinking of you and praying for you.
wow, just spending some of my quiet moments today reading your story. really makes me appreciate my babies. remember, He can move mountains.. and your little one is beautiful!
OH Mama, I wish you could have seen my face when I read the heading of your post. I just knew. I will join you in prayer and hope and lift you up and pray that angels are all around. love your yellow flower background. xo, Cheryl
Definitely praying. When I was pregnant with my firstborn, I experienced bleeding and passed a large clot too. My son is a healthy 22 year old now. 🙂 With God, ALL things are possible.
Praying hard for you! I'm so sorry! I hope that everything turns out to be ok with your little bean! Wish I was there to hug you!!